My current exercise is to try & ensure that patterns are formed but to allow myself to be completely in the moment, not think of past patterns or those that are currently being formed inside while I experience the experience. Its a tough task- in may ways its like letting go of control and complete surrender to the experience; not being the doer, recorder, analyzer and the observer at the same time. It has taken immense submission of will to realize that I am more the observer and the recorder than the doer. Everything that is experienced must be recorded. A watchful eye must be kept on the pattern being formed, identifying how similar the current pattern being formed is to previous patterns, why it is so- it only means that the pattern must be broken but is not broken. There is experience and there is thought, then thoughts on those thoughts and more thoughts. Of course, the term is metacognition- cognition on cognition. I've been too busy in seeing lights form patterns, identify and analyze that in all of that I've forgotten to learn and just watch and be the doer.
For a long time I have believed that 'I' am not my thoughts but never lived it. I have been a slave to my thoughts and bound by it. The lights in my brain- I have watched them dip, dim and grow. I have become them- my memories and my ego. I have let myself be defined by them. My existence as a person has been limited to the neurons in my brain- beautiful fairy lights- I am more than that. Tat tavam Asi
Nasrul Minal-ah-e- wah fatah un Kareeb
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But what are we, if not what we think we are?
would you say that we are ONLY our thoughts? Thoughts are most often a resultant of conditioning and we at times our own prison make. For me it's an exercise to not 'think' and analyze & be. I have paid too much attention to the brain & its development- not so much the heart. Personally, I think we base our identity too much on the brain, while our thoughts contribute in making us who we are I believe we are much more than that, heart & soul but also part of something bigger- a force of interconnectedness that we've over time gained a disconnect from. I would like to believe there is more to me than 'aham'. What are your thoughts on it?
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